Sometimes, i really feel like a big fucking loser. 

Loser man, you know, LOSER. I am sucha big loser. 

I hate losing to other people, IN THE PAST. I don't like that feeling of losing. 

Not now, anymore. I don't even feel like challenging myself or others now.

And, i do use alot of time to think carefully and not creating troubles now. 

I don't make decisions just like that now, i did killed millions of my brain cells. 

I know i don't say or express how i feel, people won't really know. 

Even my lecturer told my mum i am not someone who will express myself. I don't deny. 

Urgh. ):

I miss overnight at cruise ): 

Our conversation was weird just now. Awkward? Maybe.