Down down down

Fucking sad.

I promised myself i must sleep well yesterday, for once. 

I slept till morning, wokeup tearing.

Whenever i burst into tears now, i feel like vomiting. I don't wna vomit. 

I keep controlling but i really feel like crying out loud )':

I feel like screaming, i feel like shouting, i feel like crying.

I don't know why i am feeling like this. 

This & that, make me crazy.

Till i feel like vomiting, i eat and feel like vomiting halfway -.- 

I don't care if ppl care what i write here, i want to write i really don't wna hide anymore. 

I can just surrender my admin card on monday, 

and that goes to the end of the day i can be with MGBD.

I need to surrender it by friday ): 

This makes me sad enough.

Much more, adding in that. I am not sad only bec of this. 

& also that, that adds up to a ..... killer. 

I have never been like this. I have never cried again and again bec of  that. 

I think for you, can't you don't give me a I-don't-know answer? 

Can you think? Think of everything.

I feel like slapping myself man. 

Sigh,

At least now i am not gonna regret cause i have asked what i wna ask.

I ask and do what i can do already. I can do nothing now too. 

No doubts already, i think.