Edited, 11.05pm

Edited! (actually life's good enough just that most of us take things for granted).

Reached home not long just now after church fellowship. It's great, Haha always great luh huh. 

But anyway was feeling damm tired just now :/ Didn't sleep enough for the previous night. Oh we discussed abit about mooncake festival too when it's going to end soon. & an hui jiang dao was like, alvin and me say what go see moon together lah, HAHA! Cause we're supposed to like maybe put up short drama. Like damm funny. Everybody keep laughing. & she told me if i can dance that day .__. Like omg, lol. Aiyah idk anyway. Hahaha. 

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Slept at around 6am in the morning. Feeling unwell, my neck's damm pain and stomach too. 

I watched tv, online, etc  ..still couldn't sleep. Then called doreen to talk to phone. 

Endedup she's also tired and ko-ed at 5 plus? D: Then i toss around my bed trying to sleep.

Wokeup at 1 plus pm just now. Wanted to go out and find jobs but i was damm lost idk why.

& My stomach's feeling damm uncomfortable. Went to library to retun my books. 

While i was looking through some graphic books, my stomach DAMM FUCKING PAIN.

Out of a sudden, sharp pain. Damm it man i swear. I feel like i am gonna faint soon. I didn't ate anything too from yesterday till now. & i surrender man, went back home. 

Headache & stomach pain kills. 

Emotional.

Damm fugging emo now lol :/ Seriously, damm fucking sadddddddd ))))))): 

Just came back from school, my classmates got a photoshoot in green screen room with their ex-dee baybeats members. I realised one of the members is one of the campus superstar 'marcus'. lol. Anyway, I waited for guixin cause i got nothing to do after their presentation.

Today's my last day in SIDM D: Okay, i am super sad that i nearly cried just now when jingyee asked me things. Yea but whatever, i had fun taking like so many photos with 'em! I will load one only cause blogger's sucha asshole, bloody slow.

Can go to my facebook to see :D

I'll miss everyone in mgbd like hell, i swear.

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It's been long since.. I miss. 

I feel pain deep inside and i don't know why, maybe

I think life's good enough just that most of us often take things for granted, like me.

Think.. We have nice clothes to wear, nice food to eat! &nice place to stay in .....

But why are most of us always grumbling that our life's bad? I don't understand why i am like this too. I should seriously stop complaining so much & be grateful.

Surrendered my admin card today. Laughed alot with jasmine these few days. Urg, am so gonna miss it. I am gonna miss all my classmates after tml ): Mum's asking me to find a design course for like maybe a few months before finding a job. She told me maybe NAFA/laselle course? At first, she wants me to work like everyday. She says i can't earn much by just working a few days in a wk but if you ask me to work everyday i won't have other time to learn something outside like what they want me to. & by the time i reached home, i will be damm tired. I think after tomorrow last day, my life would be boring w/o classmates.

Seriously damm fugging sian till ..no mood to blog.

I seriously miss those times & those times, very badly ):

They say love is blind. 

Edited.

Unstoppable~

One moment, i feel like blogging. Another moment, i don't have the mood already. 

Feeling damm tired & sick these few days, i don't know why. (sleepy mood). 

Anyway there's no school today but i went back to watch lunchtime performance.

I need just some time to get back my blogging feel.

- Edited yaw!

Okay, finally have some photos to upload.

Went to watch lunchtime performance, but didn't took any photos with my cca people.

I helped them and left earlier after taking their dance videos.

Angela & me took some pictures with aubin. That prettye! Well, enjoy in stagearts(:

Life's not a bed of roses

I know life is never fair. It's simple yet not easy. 

Ever since i got into poly, so many things happened.

So many things which i've never ever thought of will happen on me. 

However, i've grown up quite alot after all these. 

Through all these obstacles, i've got closer to god too.

I just hope from now on, i won't regret whatever things i've done. 

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I miss the times, badly. 

I really do.

DOVA & YINGYI! (: 

Anyway, really thanks dova these days so much for being there for me(: 

Let's don't think so much, together. Let's update each other okay. 

& yingyi although you don't know how to console people hahaha.

Still thanks for always talking to me HAHAHA! :/ 

The amazing father has given us the strength(: I know i am not alone.

Back from church(:

Jesus is my saviour!(:

I love myself so much haha! Suddenly, felt like i did something.

Went church today, youth grp. 

& today, liu chuan dao came so most of the youth ppl came back.

And yeah, talked alot. One by one came up, talked about alot things. 

HAHA, it's super fun & good experience i swear. 

After that is like, helping people pray. Everyone, together. 

One by one is to take turns to help pray. 

I never put my hands like this like help people to pray before. 

But suddenly i felt like, god gave me the strength. He passed me his strength to me!(: 

After the praying thing, we're to come up one by one to say how we feel being prayed by so many people together and also helping people pray. 

That feeling, is cannot describe one luh!(: 

I felt like.. Is like everyone helping you to pray, you can feel the strength and love there for you. You're never alone, you know. Before that i was unhappy about school's stuffs, some other things.. and wasn't in a very good mood, but after that i felt like i got back some confidence. 

Is like, everyone passed down their strength and love to you. 

They share the strength with you, everybody there is happy and strong! 

After that, we had food to eat MUHAHAHA. 

Laugh like mad everyone. 

From now on, my name is ANNA SUI HOR! MUHAHAHA :D

Down down down

Fucking sad.

I promised myself i must sleep well yesterday, for once. 

I slept till morning, wokeup tearing.

Whenever i burst into tears now, i feel like vomiting. I don't wna vomit. 

I keep controlling but i really feel like crying out loud )':

I feel like screaming, i feel like shouting, i feel like crying.

I don't know why i am feeling like this. 

This & that, make me crazy.

Till i feel like vomiting, i eat and feel like vomiting halfway -.- 

I don't care if ppl care what i write here, i want to write i really don't wna hide anymore. 

I can just surrender my admin card on monday, 

and that goes to the end of the day i can be with MGBD.

I need to surrender it by friday ): 

This makes me sad enough.

Much more, adding in that. I am not sad only bec of this. 

& also that, that adds up to a ..... killer. 

I have never been like this. I have never cried again and again bec of  that. 

I think for you, can't you don't give me a I-don't-know answer? 

Can you think? Think of everything.

I feel like slapping myself man. 

Sigh,

At least now i am not gonna regret cause i have asked what i wna ask.

I ask and do what i can do already. I can do nothing now too. 

No doubts already, i think.