Why am i running away from people ):

I bought like 4. & I made 2. Sis helped too. 

& one is for guixin. For the sake of fun..... Nothing to do, i did these. 

Ms sherlyn called me just now, i cannot believe i was so afraid of listening till i missed 5 calls from her. What the hell is wrong is me man. ):

Just now went school to pass cca things, i was actually outside aerobics room quite some time looking at 'em dancing. I don't know why, i just don't dare to go in. Wtf is wrong with me ):

That kind of feeling i got.. like, i got no face to see 'em. 

I really don't know what happen, i just don't even dare to knock the door. 

Is just knocking at a door! I was outside looking and looking and my hands can't even go touch the damm door. In the end, cause my cousin was rushing me, i knocked on the door. 

Was even so afraid to look at their faces. What is wrong, what is wrong. 

I felt like going in, but i can't. 

Why? What happen? I don't understand, i rly don't, why isit that i am the one........ 

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Suddenly morning, my mum called me and tell me she think through and she let me change course. 2 yrs wasted? But anyway it's not confirm i can get in the course i want too. 

If i can't, back to square one again. 

I still got countless things to worry about. 

Why am i feeling sad? 

I was waiting for the whole day, but i didn't got one at all. 

From morning to afternoon to night and till now. 

Maybe i got used to it & this is what happen now. 

I feel like asking myself to go and die.

Honestly, i feel like everything is against me now. 

I can't do anything right. 

Right now, i feel so fuckedup still. 

I can't get out of that i don't know....

Is like you can't go left or right and even if you look up and down, there's nothing......

You're sometimes given a choice, but it's NOT a choice to you either. 

What fucking choice is that you'll ask yourself?